their indifference, my shame

i am always embarrassed
when i miss those
who don't care to 
even give a thought
of me

it's like ...
excitedly babbling
about a subject of interest
only to find
that no one is listening
or even cares
caught up in
their own self-contained
bubbles

so the words,
exploding
glistening
once rainbow bright
with vivacity
slowly lose their vibrancy
colors sad
wilted
with losing life
bleeding away
into gray silence

that is what it's like

my heart hemorrhaging
prismatic poetry
to an audience
stone-faced
indifferent
unmoved

that is how i feel

i have to 
remind myself

if i knock on the door
of a house
with no lights
i shouldn't be surprised
when 
no one answers

it does not lessen my shame