Always the Bridesmaid

the world is small
and people talk
it is the nature
of the social beast
the want
the feeling
to be
a part of 
something

that being said
it came as no surprise
when the idle
neighborhood gossip
the game of telephone
reached me
almost immediately

it didn't take you long
did it...
going back to the one
you wanted in the first place

what can i say?
nothing
except that 
i cannot find
my shocked face

perhaps
because there isn't 
one